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[Apr. 15th, 2008|12:52 am] |
I honestly didn't think I'd ever here from her again. After 8 months she finally sends a message back to me addressing the one I had sent her.
I don't know what to do. Try to mend a broken friendship? Start over? Go separate ways like we have been? I treat my friends well; I treat them real well. And they treat me well in turn. But with her - I did everything I could to help her whenever she needed it; I was there always. I didn't expect her to be some outstanding friend, I just wanted her to be a friend. She was never there. She never followed through with what she said she would do. She's gotten into drinking, hangs out with god knows who - probably some always semi-wasted and not a real positive influence group of people.
I forced myself not to make contact with her because I always was the one who would do it; I wanted to see if she would message/call me. She didn't. And now here she is - 8 god damn months later. What do you do? I don't want to sound completely bitter and bitchy if I write back to her because I'm not. I'm just disappointed and hurt and distrustful of her now.
Fuck. Why after all this time?! |
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[Mar. 29th, 2008|10:38 pm] |
Haven't posted much lately at all, but thought I'd share some lulz now.
For capsolocksweeney again:
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| It makes me want to cry |
[Mar. 12th, 2008|09:47 am] |
"I honestly think it's the biggest threat our nation has, even more so than terrorism or Islam." - Rep. Sally Kern of OK
Other statements she said:
"The homosexual agenda is destroying this nation."
"No society that has totally embraced homosexuality has lasted for more than, you know, a few decades."
"What's happening now is they're going after, in schools, two-year-olds."
How can people think like that? I just can't believe it. It's horrible.
Last month in California, a 15-year-old boy, Lawrence King, who suffered taunting and bullying by his classmates because of his sexual orientation, was killed by one of those classmates – a 14-year-old boy. The week after Lawrence King's death saw the murder of another teen, this time a 17-year-old transgender youth in Fort Lauderdale, Florida.
This country is full of shit. At least it's people are. No wonder people hate Americans in other countries; they don't tolerate anyone who's different than their pious religious selves. America goes fucking gallavanting over to other places to conform them to democracy and equality, but it doesn't even exist in fucking America.
I'm tired of this shit. |
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| Gearing up for Spring's wrath |
[Feb. 25th, 2008|04:43 pm] |
Everyone's complaining how they're sick of the cold and all that, but frankly, I want it to stay wintery for as long as possible. Want to know why?
Well, let's have a look here at past Kansas springs and the monsters it brings and then you'll see why I'm always a bit scared for my life and home when spring rolls around...
( Don't let that beauty fool you! )
Yeah. It sucks being in 'tornado alley.' |
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[Feb. 10th, 2008|07:45 pm] |
I posted it a little while ago, but I thought you kids round here may think it funny as well. More fun at ![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif) capslocksweeney
Blatantly taken from "A Night at the Roxbury"
( TOBY'S RESPONSE ) |
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| Another ST fic |
[Feb. 10th, 2008|12:48 am] |
Written because I lost a bet with ![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) industrialdoom (curse you!!!) So here's my pay up.
Title: Insanity
Rating: NC-17
Characters/Pairings: Todd/Anthony, Anthony/Johanna
Warnings: Rape, violence/blood/sadism
Disclaimer: I don't own ST - no part of it whatsoever. I make no profit. All belongs to Sondheim and others.
Summary: A knock would have served him well.
( Todd had completely snapped ) |
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[Feb. 6th, 2008|11:49 pm] |
I haven't been getting much sleep these past couple of nights, but it's all good in my neighborhood. Even though I've gotten less hours, I've been sleeping quite well once I do go to bed. Sadly, I don't think I'm dreaming.....:D
I feel good lately. I don't know why. And I'm loving my music classes even more. Too bad I can't just take those instead of things like stupid composition. And I've got to start working out for the P.E. credit. Blah. Once I go once, I'm sure it won't be as difficult to go again and get into a routine. It's just actually starting that's the problem...
I think it's been a week since I've written on one of my fics. My brain was just burning up; I had to give it a rest. Maybe it was just too much sadism going on - it was forgetting how to be "good." But! Hopefully I'll be able to start up again because damn it, I will finish "Translation" by May! |
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[Feb. 4th, 2008|03:40 pm] |
WHY AM I LIKE THIS?! GOD DAMN!
"You have to be in the box before you can get out of the box." - Steve
"You can't milk a bald eagle." - Ben
"Majinor" - just say it out loud. Sounds naughty. |
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| "Lean a little bit closer, see |
[Feb. 3rd, 2008|09:24 pm] |
Roses really smell like poooo. Yeah, roses really smell like pooo.
Crazy bitch."
That's pretty much me right now - a crazy bitch. I don't think I'll be getting to sleep anytime soon seeing as how people are partying down the hall from the stupid Super Bowl. Four more months with these people and I'll be free. And then maybe my momma won't be so depressed since her "empty nest" will be occupied again with me for the summer. I'm worried about her.
Oh and hey: you want good music to shut up and drive to? Sweeney Todd soundtrack. Crank that organ up. |
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| More ST lulz |
[Jan. 31st, 2008|11:04 pm] |
These are fun! I want to see if I can start doing it with POTC screencaps...
( 3 more under here ) |
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| More ST fic |
[Jan. 30th, 2008|10:32 pm] |
Though, it isn't porn. ;) More of an interaction between Todd and Toby and razors.
Title: Curiosity
Rating: PG-13
Characters: Todd, Toby, mentions of Lovett, razors
Warnings: bit of threatening a little boy with a razor :)
Disclaimer: I don't own it, blah blah blah. I make no profit.
Summary: “It’s not nice to touch something that doesn’t belong to you without asking."
( Mr. Todd was a bit frightening ) |
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| ST full of naughty laughs |
[Jan. 29th, 2008|04:09 pm] |
I found a new comm. where they often tack on ridiculously hilarious crap onto screencaps of Sweeney Todd. So, here's the ones I've done so far:
( The rest under here ) |
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| More ST porn |
[Jan. 26th, 2008|06:15 pm] |
Yup. The idea for this came when I was lying awake in the dorm at like 2 in the morning. It's not supposed to be anything special. XD
Title: More Than A Dinner Guest
Rating: NC-17
Characters/Pairings: Anthony/Sweeney
Warnings: m/m, rape/dub con, alcohol
Disclaimer: I don't own ST, the musical, any of that. I make no profit.
Summary: Anthony was sincerely grateful that Todd would not remember a thing.
( Temptation ) |
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| WTF? |
[Jan. 25th, 2008|06:32 pm] |
Johnny isn't nominated for a SAG? For POTC or ST???? What the fuck?!
And ST isn't up for any, like I thought it would be up for best encsemble.
Well, fuck. That's gay.
Least now I don't have to tape...4-5 hours of the damn show. |
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[Jan. 15th, 2008|03:14 pm] |
Aw! How cute!
I do love making people laugh. And I'd die without an imagination. :D Good match. |
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| Congrats Johnny!!! |
[Jan. 13th, 2008|08:45 pm] |
After seven nominations, they finally got it right. And god damn it, you deserved it for Sweeney.
And Sweeney Todd just won! Fucking god! Tim Burton and everyone - you deserved it! Finally! All right! You crushed what everyone thought was sure to win!
Fuck, I'm all happy now. Okay, now I wish the actual Globes were happening instead of the press conference thing. It would've been nice to see Johnny and Tim finally walk across that damn stage. Ah well. |
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| Fandom |
[Jan. 13th, 2008|12:50 am] |
I'm growing tired of it. Just the whole...fandom thing. I love writing fanfic, don't get me wrong. And I don't mind that I don't get a lot of comments; a lot of my readers have dropped me or LJ completely. That's cool. But there's this ever present feeling that there are "ring leaders," or rather a certain number of people who have a "higher standing" in the realm. It's just kind of...sad to see that a new writer or someone not as well-known as say, someone who's been in the fandom for awhile hardly gets any feedback when another post could be filled with 20, 30 comments.
I keep thinking about leaving the POTC comms I'm in entirely; maybe I should finally do it and be done with it. If people want to read my stuff, they'll be able to find it. Just the other day, someone commented on a story I posted back in July, for god's sakes. People can find me, if they'd like. Maybe I should apply the advice I got for my job: quit before you end up hating it completely. Quit the comms. before I hate being a part of it.
Shit, what the hell do I do? Well, one thing I know for sure: I'll keep writing my ass off until there's nothing more to write. I've got 13 fics that are WIPs for POTC alone. It's not like I'm going to run out of material any time soon. Besides, I've got to keep writing fanfic; it's the only thing that'll keep me from blowing up all mankind. At least the people that piss me off. |
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| TMI - stolen from dragonmad |
[Jan. 12th, 2008|02:34 am] |
It's 2:40 in the morning here; I've still got time to do stuff!!! I've got to start getting on a schedule though next week...None of this staying up until 4 in the morning anymore....
( For fun ) |
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| Shut the fuck up! |
[Jan. 8th, 2008|06:11 pm] |
I am so sick of hearing, "And the writer's strike...." "Becuase of the writer's strike...." "I'm not crossing the picket line..."
SHUT THE FUCK UP!
Writers, fucking get over yourselves. I'm sorry. But I think it's absolutely ridiculous. No doubt you were making a hell of a lot of money anyway. Moreso than the majority of people in the country. At least you had a job! A lot of people don't! And you were making all sorts of cash! You should be happy you even get to do a job you have a passion for: writing!
Fucking get over yourselves. |
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| Flames, JD, The Warren |
[Jan. 6th, 2008|11:23 am] |
Ok. A bit of entertainment to start us off. I'm seriously of thinking about replying to this one, though!
From ff.net on "Enter Sandman"
"I can't seem to find a word to describe this, apart from downright paedophillic. I'm fifteen, but I can obviously see then if there is some sort of sick fantasy being played out here, it is NOT right. Willy Wonka is a delightful character from a children's novel, not a kiddie lover, and frankly to even want to write about it in a non-horror way is frankly sick. It was well written. That is all. Terrible plot line, and as eccentric as the man is he would never do that. I know thats the whole point of fanfiction, but when a child does something innocently flirtatous, you do not encourage it. For anyone to like this fanfiction they must also feel the same way. Unless you wanted them to be disturbed? But judging by this I say not."
Now, some pics.
Just cause:
There it be! All the Johnny and Geoffrey films I have. Well, we do have the "Banger Sisters," but it's technically my mom's. AWE isn't in there, but I've got it!! :D I've still got a ways to go to go to finish the collection. hahaa
I finally took some pics iside the Warren the other day with my phone. Being all cool about it to not draw attention. :) Here are some:
( When I took a trip to ST ) |
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