Whatsername ([info]st_minority) wrote,
@ 2008-02-03 21:24:00
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"Lean a little bit closer, see
Roses really smell like poooo. Yeah, roses really smell like pooo.
Crazy bitch."

That's pretty much me right now - a crazy bitch. I don't think I'll be getting to sleep anytime soon seeing as how people are partying down the hall from the stupid Super Bowl. Four more months with these people and I'll be free. And then maybe my momma won't be so depressed since her "empty nest" will be occupied again with me for the summer. I'm worried about her.

Oh and hey: you want good music to shut up and drive to? Sweeney Todd soundtrack. Crank that organ up.

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[info]rose_melody2
2008-02-04 03:43 am UTC (link)
Oh god, Outkast? I was actually obsessed with that song when it first came out, but... no. Just no. My dad's got all his friends over for the Super Bowl..they're all drunk...

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[info]st_minority
2008-02-04 05:18 am UTC (link)
I still love that song! Why no?!!!
Ugh. That must suck. I don't know why people are so in love with football....

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[info]maelstromumbrae
2008-02-04 03:58 am UTC (link)
Myself, Pauline, and Abby, complete with blaring At World's End soundtrack.

We -OWNED- Up is Down. OOOOOOWNED.

AWE+ Three part harmony of Soprano, Mezzosoprano, and Alto=orgasmic!

I needs money for Swenney Todd st ;_;

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[info]st_minority
2008-02-04 04:15 am UTC (link)
That's a good one too. and the Kraken.

Did you get my comment from the last post? I changed it to private, so I wanted to see if you got it or not.

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[info]maelstromumbrae
2008-02-04 05:16 pm UTC (link)
I got your first reply, but LJ got bitchy when I tried to reply back ^_^;; Want me to send my reply as an e-mail?

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[info]st_minority
2008-02-04 06:14 pm UTC (link)
Yeah. It may not have let you since I made it private. Who knows? :D

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[info]industrialdoom
2008-02-04 04:54 am UTC (link)
Whenever drunk people are too loud, I usually go out in the hall and yell at them or, my roomie Dan and I play "Gimme More" as loud as humanly possible to irritate the shit out of them. It works sometimes, and they never remember in the morning. :)

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[info]st_minority
2008-02-04 05:19 am UTC (link)
If only I had the balls. I'm way too fucking shy and rather passive to do something like that. Shame. But that's pretty hella funny with "Gimme More!" It'd irritate the shit out of me too!

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[info]industrialdoom
2008-02-04 05:54 am UTC (link)
A lack of testicular fortitude is no excuse in the presence of a tranny! Shame on you! :-p You don't seem too passive from the stuff you write btw. LOL You should let a bit of that bleed through to your real life. It'd do you some good I bet.

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[info]st_minority
2008-02-04 02:37 pm UTC (link)
I'm sorry! If I said I didn't have the ovaries to do it, would that let me slide a little?? :) The things I write are a totally different story! Person even! haha It's got to be a lack of confidence kind of thing; that or I really hate to piss people off.

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[info]industrialdoom
2008-02-04 04:20 pm UTC (link)
Ha ha yeah, I was just kidding anyways. I had a real rough time getting over being shy and stuff, but then I got to college, and I found could start over again. So I took advantage of the opportunity and ended up a much louder and more obnoxious version of myself with the help of some others. I look quite a bit different too. :) I'm no where as sadistic as the stuff I write too, I know, I could do most of it. Stress on the word most though. Ha ha.

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[info]st_minority
2008-02-04 05:02 pm UTC (link)
How did you just....get over being shy? I thought I was doing better once I had my job for awhile, but now I'm all quiet again. I think one of the problems is that I'm at a community college and it seems like it's just the people I went to high school with; there's no change. I should've gone to a bigger campus maybe. :) And I'm sure you do look a bit different! lol Are you like, completely completely changed, or do you still have to do more things to make yourself look like you want to? Sorry if I'm prying; I'm just curious. :D
The thing with sadism is that I don't think I could do any of it in real life! I'd be a pussy sub. hahahaa

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[info]industrialdoom
2008-02-04 09:41 pm UTC (link)
Getting over being shy... it is hard. I think most of it had to do with finally being comfortable in my own skin. That took time and acceptance and hormones, and surgery LOL. Also (I'm a big anthro nerd btw) I realized, there's so much human variation that nothing really matters! There will always be individuals who don't fit the normal archetype of what someone is supposed to look like and act like. The truth is a very relative thing, as is culture and society and everything else in the world. I came to college thinking I would be what they call "stealth" (where no one knows about your past) but I got here, and I just realized, there's no point in hiding. I had spent the previous 18 years of my life hiding and trying to please other people so I decided it was high time I said fuck it and did what I wanted and made friends with people who didn't give a crap. Because frankly, people who judge you on things like that aren't worth your time. I think probably the biggest thing was when I got to my dorm the co-president (a big gothic/punk homo) kinda took me under his wing, and he's outrageous and does his own thing. I learned a lot from him and he forcefully dragged me out of my shell. I think also, just being around people who didn't have a preconceived idea of who I am let me get over everything. I didn't want to go to a big campus because I have anti-social tendencies but it actually worked out a lot better. You can be involved and anonymous all at once.

As for changes, yeah I've done most of what I'm going to do. Not to sound cocky or anything but, going from social outcast to like, attractive gay guy has made me a lot happier and comfortable with all of my 'shortcomings'. Some trans people get all offended if you ask them things like that but, what are the two primary motivators of humanity? Food and sex. Present someone with an anomaly with either of the two and it will pique their interest. Maybe I'll post pictures, I have a file of like 'progress' pictures, which is really cliche but, when you're in the beginning stages, it is hard not to be obsessed with how much you've changed. :-p

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[info]st_minority
2008-02-05 02:23 am UTC (link)
Ack! I wish I could say fuck it; and I do, and I keep telling myself I don't care what people think, but I do. Blegh. God damn brain. The reason people don't approach me, I think, is because it always looks like I'm pissed at the world. lol It's not like I intentionally frown/scowl! My sister's the same way; go figure. Maybe, instead, it's the tats that keep people away; I like to think they make me look like I can kick someone's ass. :) I need someone like your punk homo. If I got forced out and made to talk, you probably wouldn't be able to shut me up! I've got a great group of friends at home, but none really here at college. Besides, there's not many places to go in a small town near the Oklahoma border. To the casino!

Well, that certainly is a good change! :D I'd be really interested to see some pictures; stuff like this just fascinates me. I have a lot of respect for you because you actually did it instead of settling for unhappiness in another skin. And that you're so comfortable with your sexuality. Ah well. Maybe I'll get there someday instead of trying to cover mine. There was this guy in high school and he was the most gay guy you'd ever meet; I swear to god. He was pretty much the stereotypical gay. lol He was out there and never tried to hide it. I should think like Chris...

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[info]industrialdoom
2008-02-05 05:09 am UTC (link)
I recently got a lip ring so I can understand people not wanting to approach you. Old people give me looks now. LOL. I think tats are awesome. I don't know that I'll get one but, I like them. It takes a long time to get to that point of just not caring. I guess growing up like I did just made me do it faster. Who knows... People I don't know think I'm weird. My friend's roomie thought I was a psychopath because I don't smile and I say outrageous shit. lol. I think the main thing is, if people are nervous coming to you, go to them and act friendly and intelligent and that'll get you pretty far if they seem receptive. It's what worked for me on the internets, which I've never done before. I wouldn't have talked to you if I didn't try.

You'll come outta your shell sooner or later. And thanks for the respect bit, but to tell you the truth, when you're in the situation, there isn't much you can do besides killing yourself. I hate the stereotypical fags, they're so cheesy, and they have that lisp. *vomit* I want to date a man, not a woman. LOL Just do your own thing, I think a lot of people like it when a woman is her own person, and dominant. Do you have a facebook? I have pics on there atm.

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[info]st_minority
2008-02-05 05:54 am UTC (link)
Did that hurt? Piercings freak me out for some reason, though I'm thinking about getting either a nose or eyebrow done. Tats are definitely fun, and it's pretty much true that if you get one, you're going to get another. That happened to me and now I have 5. I recommned getting one! :)
Ok, here's a question then: how do you pick and choose who to go up to? Random people? Ha, that'd be funny as hell. I'm sure it'd be a WTF moment.

Have you ever seen "Talladega Nights?" It's hilarious. Sorry. It's on right now and I get distracted easily...

I do have a facebook; I couldn't resist following the crowd on that one. Let me fetch a link... http://hs.facebook.com/profile.php?id=510949564

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[info]industrialdoom
2008-02-05 06:15 am UTC (link)
It only hurts when the needle pierces your skin. After that it is cake, though cleaning it is a bitch. Eating was a bit difficult for a couple days afterward but no problems now. My friend Dan has a eyebrow one, it is pretty cool. My only problem with a tattoo is, wtf would I get?
And no not random people, usually you'll have a class or be in a situation where you can tell there's one really quiet kid. It's easiest the first couple days of class or school usually because its socially acceptable to go up and introduce yourself. Essentially, seek out folks like you that seem unapproachable! :-p

And no, I haven't seen that one yet though I love Will Ferrel. I barely watch TV anymore... homework usually takes up too much of my time.

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[info]st_minority
2008-02-05 06:35 am UTC (link)
Eek. Well! I guess I'll have plenty of time to think about it; I'm poor like a bitch since I haven't gotten a financial aid check yet.

Ha! I am the quiet kid!! lol But I do do that; look for the other quiet person. That way if there's ever a group activity or whatever, I know who to go to. I guess there's always next year to do it since classes have been going for a couple of weeks now.

It's a must see movie. Seriously. But homework is a bitch.

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